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Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
3:15 am	this picture is great. Life is confusing. I have this vague idea that people in modern society are in a permenant identity crisis. (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 25th, 2005
5:29 am	and it's christmas morning. I'm sitting in a dorm room and I'm out of place, Ive been out of place for what feels like my whole life. And suddenly I noticed this life crisis I see in our world. I see peoples identity, religion, political views, dress, style, et cetera change completely every few years, or every years or throughout a year. We never feel quite comfortable in the identity we've created and we are ever tweaking, ever changing it all. I was looking at people on facebook that I knew last year or a few years back and I notice how drastic personality differences they have... new job, new boyfriend, new frriends, new place to live, vioala', new identity. and life is always changing and we don't know how to feel stable. Our fathers generation had a lot of choices as to what sort of job they had, In our generation the jobs many of us will have in 5 years don't exhist now, we have no models for our behavior, for our life... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
2:36 am	life and economics First I'm noting what an interesting landsacpe of society livejournal is. website and communities on the internet our are our generations tv series. As The computer takes way out of more and more television, The internet takes on more of the need that telivision met. Websites, either funny, useful, interactive, et cetera are as much a come-and-go pop phenomenon as tv hits. This is how I feel about Livejournal. Communities like these have a survival technique telivision never could. The more you put into it, the more it brings to you. And that was not the economics thought. That thought is coming another day- (Comment on this)
Monday, August 1st, 2005
11:31 am	(x) smoked a cigarette (x) smoked a cigar (x) smoked anything else (x) made out with a member of the same sex (x) been in love (x) been dumped (x) shoplifted (x) been fired (x) been in a fist fight (x) snuck out of parent's house (x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back (x) been arrested (x) made out with a stranger (x) gone on a blind date (x) lied to a friend (x) had a crush on a teacher (x) skipped school (x) slept with a co-worker (x) seen someone die (x) had/have a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends ( ) been to Mexico (x) been to Europe (x) been on a plane (x) thrown up in a bar (x) eaten Sushi (x) been snowboarding (x) crashed and burned snowboarding (x) been moshed at a concert ( ) been in an abusive relationship (x) taken painkillers ( ) in love right now (x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by (x) made a snow angel (x) had a tea party (x) flown a kite (x) built a sand castle (x) gone puddle jumping (x) played dress up (x) jumped into a pile of leaves (x) gone sledding (x) cheated while playing a game (x) been lonely (x) fallen asleep at work/school (x) used a fake ID (x) watched the sun set ( ) felt an earthquake (x) touched a snake (x) been tickled (x) been robbed ( ) robbed someone (x) been misunderstood (x) pet a reindeer/goat ( ) won a contest (x) been suspended from school (x) had detention (x) been in a car accident (x) had/have braces (x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night (x) had deja vu (x) danced in the moonlight ( ) hate the way you look (x) witnessed a crime (x) questioned your heart (x) squished barefoot through the mud.. (x) been lost (x) been to the opposite side of the country (x) swam in the ocean (x) felt like dying (x) cried yourself to sleep (x) played cops and robbers (x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers (x) sang karaoke (x) paid for a meal with only coins (x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't (x) made prank phone call (x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose (x) caught a snowflake on your tongue (x) written a letter to Santa Claus ( ) been kissed under a mistletoe (x) watched the sun set with someone you care about (x) blown bubbles (x) made a bonfire on the beach (x) crashed a party (x) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people (x) gone rollerskating/blading... (x) had a wish come true ( ) worn pearls (x) jumped off a bridge ( ) screamed "penis" in class ( ) ate dog food on a dare ( ) told a complete stranger you loved them (x) sang in the shower ( ) had/have a little black dress (x) made whoppee in a park (x) had a dream that you married someone ( ) glued your hand to something ( ) got your tongue stuck to a pole ( ) kissed a fish (x) worn the opposite sexes clothes ( ) been a cheerleader (x) sat on a roof top ( ) had sex at a church (x) screamed at the top of your lungs (x) done a one-handed cartwheel (x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours (x) stayed up all night (x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree (x) climbed a tree (x) had a tree house (x) been scared to watch a scary movie alone ( ) believe in ghosts ( ) have/had more then 30 pairs of shoes (x) worn a really ugly outfit to school (x) gone streaking (x) played ding-dong-ditch (ringing a door bell and running) ( ) played chicken (x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on (x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger ( ) broken a bone (x) been easily amused (x) caught a fish then ate it (x) made porn (x) caught a butterfly (x) laughed so hard you cried (x) cried so hard you laughed (x) mooned/flashed someone (x) had someone moon/flash you (x) cheated on a test (x) forgotten someone's name (x) slept naked (x) French braided someones hair (x) gone skinny dipping I always fucking hate people who put surveys of themselves up here... but I just realized that now. last one, seriously. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 11th, 2005
10:48 pm	Today is a good day. Right now I am stuffed like a pinata, eating with my two best friends is always a good time. My class is ludicrously easy and pretty fun. Young hip professor=good times Joke of the day: Q:Whats the difference between Iraq and Vietnam? A: Bush had a plan to get out of Vietnam. Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Blink 182 (Comment on this)
12:08 am	Surprise coffee drink + the onion + swinging at the park + (super foxy woman + great taste in music + consistently interesting personality)+ not the best ever, but darn close ice cream + 3 points for making a basket=great night. I assume "chipper" is a positive adjective as in "mint chocolate chipper ice cream" and not as in "My arm got chippered off in that lawn mower". Current Mood: chipper Current Music: indie/emo from a hot pink mp3 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 17th, 2005
2:40 pm	religion is the opiate of the masses You scored as Islam. Your beliefs are most similar to those of Islam. Do more research on Islam and possibly consider taking the shahadah and officially becoming a Muslim, if you aren't already. Despite the actions of some - who go against the teachings of Islam - Islam is a religion of peace; the word "islam" means "peace through submission to God." "Muslim" means "one who submits to God." Islam is the third of the three Abrahamic faiths, and it shares much with Judaism in Christianity; its differences are the acceptance of Muhammad as the last and final prophet, and the oneness of God - in other words, that Jesus, though he was a revered prophet, was not in fact God, and only one God exists. Apparently the Taliban could not read (though their name means "students"), because the Qur'an states that men and women are equal as believers, and that all believers should be educated and seek knowledge. Modesty in dress and behavior is required in Islam for both men and women to preserve the values of society and move the emphasis from superificial appearance to intelligence, knowledge, and God. </td> Islam 63% atheism 50% Buddhism 46% Hinduism 46% Satanism 46% agnosticism 46% Paganism 42% Christianity 33% Judaism 13% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com (Comment on this)
Friday, June 11th, 2004
4:29 pm	So I finished my activation with the army, I'm really gung fucking hoe now (not really) I'm excited about leeching of the government excited I can smoke ganj I love the feeling of doing nothing I'm sure it will grow old but it's nice Im kind of starting over again too its time to make new friends It sucks only knowing a few people maybe I'll start writing more I need a fucking apartment. Jesse (2 Comments |Comment on this)
4:18 pm	First screen name: DIAJN (Dave is a .....) First funeral: Step grandpa, I have a hot step cousin. First piercing/tattoo: lip/labre piercing First credit card: I forget but it had a 200$ limit First Kiss: Camina Ellis 4th grade First one that mattered: Megan Freilich 6th grade First love: N/A First enemy: some little funnyboy fucker, I beat him up in 4th grade First big trip: Florida with my family First concert: It was at the Eagles ballroom, I was probably 18 First musician you remember hearing in your house: John fucking Denver Last car ride: riding back from Jakes at 7:30am Last kiss:Some random in Munich Germany Last library book checked out: Two childrens stories by Madonna Last movie watched: I passed out watching some scary b movie about Elvis Last beverage drank: water Last food consumed: choloclate ice cream with gas station cappucino Last phone call: jake Last time showered: 3 maybe 5 days Last CD played: Beatles best of Last annoyance: waking up Last soda drank: piss warm 7up (way to go Jake) Last ice cream eaten: see: last food eaten Last time scolded: what does scold mean? Last website visited: www.nationstaes.com (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 15th, 2004
3:34 pm	Go to NATIONSTATES.NET build a country, Best website ever! (Comment on this)
Friday, November 7th, 2003
7:55 pm	your polititian I don't fucking get people So I'm talking to Amber and she's reading this thing about the date rape crisis and it's in a taking sides style, so there's a person arguing both sides (Sommers, Who stole femenism thats my side), anyway Amber agreed that though rapes occur and it is a terrible thing there is no "rape epidemic," also that "cohesion" is not a form of rape, and that seeing an act as consentual and then afterwords (usually based on a trigger such as being dumped or being told by someone else)changing your mind leads to serious doubt (note the word doubt does not mean it is always false). These three views are actually quite common, they are all frequently debated in the feminist arena (by feminist arena I mean people that discuss feminism not interfeminist discussions, as the new thought police explains this kind of conversation rarely exists.) HERES MY BEEF So Amber is being feed these ideas whole and never bothered to chew first (chewing is reffering to thinking about and challanging what your told before accepting it as dogmatic truth). Finally I make here chew. Suprise suprise, the food is rancid. Heres what I don't get, she still swallowed. SHE FUCKING SWALLOWED What the shit? She pretends as though she never saw the man behind the curtain. Ignorance, IGNORE. people piss me off. I cant believe I used to be a womens studies minor, I should kick myself in the balls. (ps. I dig feminism but not the b.s., thought control, paradigm of helplessness, special rights, men are evil, capitalism is the devil feminism being vomited up all over college campuses. Brown is a respectable feminist, many of the 60's and 70's feminist are, also moderate feminist (similar to lipstick feminist) aren't to bad, I mean as far as sheep go. Sic transit gloria mundi. Jesse (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
10:20 pm	I just finished Larry Elders' book The Ten Things You Can't Say In America He hits the spot like a deep dish pepperoni pizza. He's a libertarian, as such he breaks everything down to simple economics, supply and demand is a law of capitalism just like gravity is a law of physics. You do what your good at, you supply what you can most efficiently. I'm bad at relationships, and my supply of comfort is diminishing. I'm not satisfied with the quantity nor quality of my partners mentality. Larry is against farm supports because we are producing a good that either no one wants or that can be supplied better somewhere else. Why produce it? If relationships are farms, I'm planting rice in the desert. Why try? The issue perhaps is... How did I get in the desert? maybe I was raised there. CHAPTER 2 If a farmer told a grocery store "our vegetables are shitty, they are rotten and moldy, usually they last less than a week." What kind of a fucked up Grocer would buy? I meet the dumbest Grocers every other week. If only business were this easy. I'm selling a shitty product over and over and I'm not lieing about the quality. If ever there were a pro-sexism argument, this is it. Girls are dumb (see above). (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 13th, 2003
10:52 pm	damn, same cycle, same shit. Amanda, thats the girl in the last entrie (my sisters nannie). She was/is the cycle all over again. My favorite movie is High fidelity, I am Ian Raymond. Fuck he's the shittiest character. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 23rd, 2003
1:49 pm	nice guys I'm the nice guy now. Goin g on dates, lots of backrubs, "I love you's", gifts, all of my time, emotional energy, et fucking cetera. Being sweet is for suckers my relationship with amber is about to be over, why? I'm a nice guy. Too nice apparently. I took a trip to the "utopia" of a "fullfilling relationship". "the only flaw with liberal ideas is that they never work" -Hannity, or Limbaugh or Coulters or some other dirty republican- maybe relationships are invented by a bunch of treehuggers. guess it's back to "getting pussy from bitches and ho's" do what your good at I guess, it just doesn't satisfy. (ps. notice how I ripped on liberals and conservatives... I rule) (pss. Fuck moderates) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 27th, 2003
1:33 am	Happiness is realizing life is a game of rugby. I always wondered why I always came in last even though I was the nice guy. Now I'm kicking people in the ball's and scoring like mad. Happiness is accepting that life is a dirty game, and then playing that way. I'm sure I'll get some sort of ideological bullshit comment back. But you know what, after the game, the only ones bitching are the losers. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 27th, 2003
9:39 pm	Lonely I'm sitting in Courtneys room, lonely. She's at a party. Each time I visit her she is a little less horny, a little less interested, a little more irratable. It's another failure, one I saw coming and ignored. I would go out with Courtney in a second knowing it wouldn't work, i don't care. She just wants to be bed buddies; she wants to pursue other men while beating at my emotion and using my for well.. sex. ( I suppose I can atleast be happy about the fact that I look good naked, have great stamina and wear magnum XL's). But I'm here lonely, she will lose interest and I will lose a little more of my heart and happiness. Girls are bitches, bitches. The only thing worse than women is men. I'm a good guy, wheres my last place prize. I hope to forget. A goldfish has a 30 second memory, that means however it feels at that moment it believes it has felt that way it's whole life. If it is happy, it believes it has always been happy. If it is dieing it believes it has been dieing since it was born. Tommorow would be a good day to be a goldfish, today would not. Get busy living.... -shawshank redemption- love, jesse (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 14th, 2003
8:56 pm	This is one idea I have for a tattoo, not neccesarily the same text, but the same idea, the smaller grey font will be in UV ink thus it will only show up in black light. I hope livejournal can read my ungodly amount of html put into this little project.           THEN I DRANK                     AND WASHED IT DOWN WITH THEREPY (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 11th, 2003
8:35 pm	Kelly. I wonder why I say the shit I do. This psuedo-fantasy of mine was great and fun and happy and so unreal. It was like the closing sequence of Requiem For a Dream</b; there I was in the bath tub, fetal position, scalding water hitting my side as I shivered. And at that moment I wondered what is so FUCKING WRONG WITH ME? I, I wrote this letter to myself titled Kelly,Kate,Jill. They're all the same. Jills friend told Chris and I that Jill made fun of me because I had such a crush on her. Except for me it wasn't a crush, Jill was my best friend, she was the most special girl in the world to me. It was funny to her how special she was to me. It was fun to pretend like I was special to her too. These great lines like "I want to impress you," or "I think about you all the time." Is there a book with all these bullshit quotes in them? I wonder when the true emotions faded and made way the clever rhetoric. I wonder. What do I do wrong? Seriously, this is a serious question. Anyone reading this probably knows me atleast a little. WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO? HOW DO I FUCK THINGS UP? I know it is me, I'm not blaming other people. What should I do to be a better person? what did I do wrong Kate,Kelly,Jill? -INCEDENTE INNOCENSE E LIBRE SAPIENO- Jesse (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 9th, 2002
9:16 pm	I handed her the bottle. Drink, I said. I could hardly form sentences without thinking them out ahead of time, and even that was hard. Everything around me seemed fake and superficial, deceptive, like nothing mattered-my life had no consequences anymore, no meaning, so I grabbed Natalie and threw her onto Brett's desk, knocking over his picture of Brett Jr., and as it shattered I smacked it across the room. Then I tried to rip her panties off, but they didn't rip, so I pulled them off and they were stretched out of shape when I tossed them on the floor, but she lifted her hips and pulled her dress over her head and then her naked legs were open to me and I pounded the desk in a rage as I fucked her and I felt like dying because my life was nothing-an empty fucking nothing... -Tom Lowe, SPIN- (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 7th, 2002
2:00 pm	Top 5 most embarrasing moments 1. 4th grade, a girl unwraps my ornament to her that was an ornament of a wrapped gift. underneath, 4 cent 8 year old piece of shit ornament. The teacher made me sit in the hall during the christmas party. 2. Having sex with a girl who was on the rag. Didn't know till... lots of cleanup, really gross, plus she got around (note to self: get tested). 3. Debate with Stacy Krubsack when I said "Isn't Russia communist? Oh wait thats China... right?" 4. When it went soft and wouldn't go hard again. 5. Falling asleep right after masturbating. package in hand, little soldiers still sitting there on my hand. Dad comes in and wakes me up. Never heard a grown man laugh that hard in my life. Top 5 best pieces of liturature 1. Industrial Revolution and It's consequences by T. Kaczynski 2. The tragedy of the commons 3. How to Win Friends and Influence People 4. A kick in the seat of the pants/ A punch to the side of the head 5. Three way tie. A.The Things they Carried, Tim O'Brian B.Stupid White Men, Micheal Moore C.See I Told You So, Rush Limbaugh Top 5 memorable moments 1. Losing my virginity, don't even ask. I wouldn't tell the Pope this story. 2. Having my dad walk up to me and say "Your old enough to hear this, You mother is a FUCKING BITCH" 3. Punching Chris in the face. Why did I punch him? I didn't like his truck, actually I did, I was just making fun of it. 4. Finding out my roomate got paralyzed 5. Mr. Moorgan telling me he shouldn't let me touch foot on his fucking stage anymore. Top 5 things to do after being dumped 1. Buy coffee at a place you've been together, DO NOT GET THE SAME DRINK. 2. Listen to Constantine by something Coorporate and Colorblind by counting crows. 3. Watch High Fidelity 4. Walk around outside atleast one mile. 5. Have sex with her best friend; tape it; copy it onto the second half of your ex's favorite sappy movie; laugh; hide. Carped Gloria Vital, Jesse (Comment on this)